HACKED EMAIL ACCOUNT

Hi Everyone,

Someone has hacked my email account and has sent an email to everyone in my email account.  Since gmail remembers everyone you have emailed in the past you could have been emailed even if we only have exchanged very brief communication in the past.

Regardless do not open the email

Thanks, 
Corinne

Postive Quotes

With the recent events, I thought it only be fitting to post some positive quotes about relationships.  They are good read for a little boost and a reminder of why I am wayyy better off.

 

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." — Marilyn Monroe

 

Don't take a good woman for granted. Someday someone will come along and appreciate what you didn't. ♥

 

Don't shed your tears for someone who hurt you... Don't long for that person if they left... Don't feel sorry if you failed when you tried your best...

 

A great relationship happens when two people who truly understand each other and love each other for who they are come together and create something stronger than either of them could ever be on their own

 

Behind every beautiful girl there is a dumbass guy who did her wrong and made her strong

The Juices are Flowing Today

I have a sense of motivation today, kicking ass and taking names.  I got back on track today with the 101 bucket list and have made some serious progress.  You may have seen my post on Facebook trying to find some supporters and joiners for the adventuresome ones.  I have another 22 here that are in progress and you can see by the list that TEN of them are kicking off on this coming Sunday.  I know that might sound aggressive and overwhelming but unfortunately it is reality.  I have been putting off this list for awhile and letting other things taking priority.  I haven't been giving it the priority it deserves.  It is also is a great way to keep a grieving mind busy.  So as you guys see my post coming up for the next month of the TEN list items being completed at once, feel free to send of some motivation and support to keep it going.

 

IN PROGRESS

15. Run in 5 5k's-1 DOWN

16. Volunteer for Habitat for Humanity-12/27-12/28/2011

19. Weigh 145 pounds or less for 6 months-working on it, see Health and Fitness Blog
20. Don't eat out for one month, including coffee-Starts 10/23

28. Make an indoor herb garden-Ordered my indoor garden kit 10/20/2011

30. Print all pictures saved on computer or camera-WORKING ON IT
31. Do something nice for 5 of my friends just because-1 DOWN
32. Mail birthday and holiday cards to all of my friends and family for one year
33. Transfer all of my music to my ipod
34. Organize all of my music

39. Try 10 new restaurants and write a review with pictures- 7 DOWN (10/8/11) 3 to go

53. Improve my credit score my 100 points-Working on it

59. Don't eat red meat for 3 months-Starts 10/23
61. Have blank every day for 1 month-Starts 10/23
62. Hand write in a journal for 1 month-Starts 10/23

64. Don't swear for one week-starts 10/23

66. Save $5,000-IN PROGRESS

71. Read the newspaper for one week-starts 10/23

87. Put lotion on everyday for one month-starts 10/23
88. Get 8 hours of sleep every night for one month-starts 10/23

95. Stay at work 30 minutes late for 2 weeks-starts 10/23
96. Floss everyday for a month-starts 10/23

MY NEW YEAR’S EVE

I originally wrote this post on Friday, December 31st and from then and now all of the hope I had for 2011 was clouded by deceit and rejection. I had planned to post this on New Year’s Day but was resistant and then life happened. I became apprehensive and doubted myself.

MY NEW YEAR’S EVE was Sunday, January 9, 2011. I say it was mine because all of the hope that usually comes from the New Year and the fresh start didn’t happen for me until then. That night I hit rock bottom…again. Probably the lowest I have been in awhile. For the past week I was doing things out of my character, I was doing things that could hurt me and other people. I was doing things purposely for me to forget and to be numb from the pain, the lies and the rejection. That was it for me…done, finito, I am not going back to that again. Monday morning was a new day and a new start. (Obviously I am trying to keep this somewhat vague)

It only seems fitting for me to now announce my New Year’s Resolutions. I think this fresh start…whether it went along with the correct calendar schedule or not is needed. I reread my original post and made a couple of changes. I think when you read it you can hear the hope and excitement in my voice. I am disappointed that I let myself waver from my original plans.

So here is my original post from December 31, 2010…

If you haven't seen the movie "Easy A" I suggest seeing it. On my day off today…the day of New Year’s Eve, I spent time with friends getting a head start on 2011 by running and rock climbing and watching “Easy A” before the festivities begin.

The movie is about…High school student Olive Penderghast (Emma Stone) finds herself the victim of her school's "rumor mill" when she lies to her best friend Rhiannon (Alyson Michalka) about a weekend tryst with a fictional college freshman. Word quickly spreads of Olive's promiscuity and, much to her surprise, she welcomes the attention. When she agrees to help out a bullied friend by pretending to sleep with him, her image rapidly degrades to a more lascivious state and her world begins to spin out of control. As she helps more and more of her classmates and her lies continue to escalate, Olive must find a way to save face before the school's religious fanatic Marianne (Amanda Bynes) gets her expelled and she loses a shot at attaining her own happiness.

I have so many thoughts in my head this post is going to come out so confusing and unorganized. I apologize in advance...

My favorite line from the movie I have included at the bottom. Pause for a minute and read it...I'll wait right here for you. Just like Easy A I created my own reputation. In Landmark we refer to it as how people know you. Do they think of you as liar, a cheat, irresponsible, a bitch, always running late, too nice…we can go on and on with this. In her story all of the things are false and while some of mine are true, I created it. There is no man standing outside my window with a boombox because I have not set the standard, the expectation…I have created my character who allows people to treat me the way they do. And yes, just like Easy A it was nice to get the attention, nice to have friends or boyfriends or just people/relationships. BUT unless I change my character, explain the rules, set the standards, they are never going to change. What is so incredible about this is I have been treating myself as if I am this character that I created. I would not treat my friends with the disrespect I treat myself with. I don’t break promises to my friends, I don’t want them to be in bad health, I don’t advocate them eating crap and drinking. I don’t talk to my friends or even some strangers the way I speak to MYSELF. OMG!!!!

Those of you reading this….and I honestly don’t even care if no one reads it. I just have to get this out even if it is only for me to reflect upon. Those of you reading this may think I am coming from this depressing, dark place with this but no actually there is so much light, so much brightness, so much opportunity. Thank god I didn’t go on anymore like this. Maybe it is me getting sentimental about the New Year, but this is not coming with me into 2011. I want to tell some of you who may be reluctant about this change, I am sorry for changing the rules in the middle of the game. I know that’s not fair to expect everyone to be able to follow the new rules after they have gotten so used to the original ones. Knowing that, I understand if you don’t want to play this game of life with me anymore. I have no ill thoughts towards you…honestly!! I could have set the rules in the beginning but I didn’t, it’s my own fault. I wish you the best, hate to see you go and wish you would stay. Those of you who want to stick around…get excited. There is a whole new game about to be played!

"Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80's movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80's movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life."

After a HUGE declaration like that it only sounds fitting to set the rules or in this momentous occasion declare my New Year’s Resolution….

I declare in 2011…

I am going to be independent and content with myself!

I am going to be celibate with one exception. However, the rule is I am not going to tell anyone who it is and I am not going to tell them either. They will just have to wait for the moment to happen ;). There is one person I am still holding out for, one person I want to be a huge game player in my life.

I am not drinking alcohol until I reach my goal weight. The amount of empty calories in the stuff is ridiculous, never mind the amount of extra stuff you eat when you are drunk.

Weigh 145 pounds by May 1st, just in time for the summer.

Meet my biological mother, Christine.

Learn how to snowboard.

Take the Landmark Advanced Course

Be a HUGE PLAYER in my GAME of LIFE.

My Top 10 Things I am Thankful For

It occurred to me yesterday that I never said what I was thankful for this Thanksgiving. So better late than never I wrote a list of the top 10 things I am thankful for. They are in no particular order.

1. My parents-regardless of HOW they show they love my brother and I…they show us. I know I can count on them for anything and can call them any time day or night and they will be there for me. I am thankful for the sacrifices they have made for me and I am thankful they adopted me and provided me with the home and life I have now. This past year I got a glimpse of what my life would have been like if they hadn’t. This Thanksgiving I am especially thankful to them.

2. My brother-I am thankful for his bravery in Iraq even though I know he doesn’t really want to even be in the Army. He kept up his responsibilities and duties regardless. I am thankful for his creativity and the type of person he makes me want to be.

3. My sister-I am thankful for someone I haven’t know my entire life it amazes me that two people can be so similar…from our similar opinions, facial expressions and dance moves , we really are sisters…nothing half about it.

4. My friends-I am thankful for the real, true friendships and just relationships that I have in my life that go beyond material possessions or “opportunities” I can provide for people who are my friends. I may not have TONS of friends but the ones I do have I know that I would drive from CT to NH/MA to see them if they needed me and I know they would do the same. I am thankful for my new friendships here in CT that were very supportive with my divorce and got me through some tough times.

5. My love life-I am so thankful for where it is RIGHT NOW. I have always been so concerned about the future or “where is this relationship going”. It may not always seem this way but I am completely satisfied, content, happy, connected, inspired and thrilled with how it is RIGHT NOW not what it could be or might be in the future.

6. Landmark-I giggle a little right now as I add this to my top ten list but if it wasn’t for Landmark I would not be able to see all that I have in life, I would not have recognized my cause in my life and I would not be living as powerfully as I am now. Through Landmark I have been able to gain real peace, leave all constraints of my past behind, have real self-expression and openness. I am a clearing for possibilities.

7. Bella-I am so thankful for this little 5 pound ball of fur. She is a little brat but completely brightens my day when I come home from a tough day at work.

8. My job-I am thankful for my job. If I didn’t get it in March 2009 I would probably be living in Milford right now with Dad. I have complained about my job in the past but that’s because I lacked integrity with my employment. I wasn’t really trying or working hard. I was just complaining. Now, when I really put the effort I enjoy my job so much and I am so thankful for the opportunities it has provided me.

9. My life-I am thankful to have gotten a second chance at life and realize now what I would have missed out on. There is so much I wouldn’t have been able to experience, witness, feel.

10. My apartment-while I hate to be thankful for something materialistic, it is more that I am thankful for a place I can call my own. A place that I can be comfortable, safe, happy and be on my own.

Last but not least, as cheesy as it sounds….I am thankful for you reading my list and recognizing where you fit into my top 10. I hope my top 10 helps you in seeing how blessed you are and maybe never realized it; just as I did only a short time ago.

All I want for Christmas...is bedroom furniture

Isn't funny how as we get older our gift requests get more boring and practical.  I have moved many times within the last couple years and after selling furniture, abandoning furniture, giving it away or even just trashing it because I don't want to have to move it; I have come to the idea that I need simple furniture.  LOL.  So I have selected a set that looks nice but will get my bed off the floor.  Cheap enough that I can toss if need be for the next move but cute enough that I could always try to disassemble and bring with all on my own...no movers required.  What do ya think?  I know it's plain but that means it will go with every apartment...colorful textiles can add zest instead.  After Christmas comes if Santa doesn't get my letter I am taking all of my Christmas moola and getting this.

Makin Changes-looks like it couldn't have come at a better time

Yesterday I recommited myself to SP and it was perfect timing. I had my yearly physical and my cholesterol is really bad. In my doctor's words "If you continue on this path you will be at rick of a heart attachk at 56". WHAT!! 56!! That's less then 30 years. I am not married and don't have any kids. What if I don't get to see them get married or ever meet my grand kids.
I need to make a change, not just for how I look and feel now but for my future.

I have included my current cholesterol levels (and the range they should be in) to track their improvement. My lipid panel cholesterol is 274 should be between 0-199. My Triglycerides are good cholesterol and are at 88 and should just be less than 150. The HDL cholesterol is at 76 and is suggested to be above 39. (that's good!). My Est. LDL is at 180 and should be between 0-99.

I am going back in a couple months to get re-tested. I will keep you posted.